Getting into shape is hard!

So I am trying to get back into shape. I am not trying to lose weight I am trying to build muscle so everyday after I get the kids down for a nap I put on my work out clothes and start doing yoga or this other work out DVD that I have. I have to say I feel a lot better through out my day but it is so hard! My goal is to to be able to do the hand stand part on my yoga DVD so I will let you know when I am able to do it and I will even post pics. So you should hear back from me in about a six months to one year. :) I might even post pics of my attempts just for a good laugh!

swimsuit time :-|

So the other day I went to the swimming pool with my kids and found that after almost one year of not being pregnant I am still only comfortable in my maternity swim suit! On our way to the pool I fondly remembered how "fat" I was in High School and thought to myself how I would love to be that fat again. I have been hoping and not doing much working on getting my body worthy to be in a swimsuit with out having to have shorts and a t-shirt on. I was tempted to just go in pants my legs are so pasty white. So I am doing something about it this year. I am going to get into shape,get a tan. But not only that I am getting a new swimsuit that will compliment my motherly figure. Take a look!

Ahhh freedom

So on Thursday evening I had to run to the store. It had been a long day and the last thing I wanted to do was go grocery shopping, but you gotta do what you gotta do right. So on my way out I grabbed my rascal flats CD and thought well I can listen to this and try to make the best of things. Any way before I knew it I was on my way music blasting singing to the top of my lungs and then out of the blue I got all chocked up and started to cry. I felt so silly. Why would I be crying and then I noticed how free I felt, I had not one single child with me I was all alone. How nice. I was able to just breathe for a minute. I didn't have to tell Nehemiah to stop torturing his sister and I didn't have to deal with Baea screaming while I got her ready for bed turning what should be a few minute ordeal into something that lasts way longer than it should I didn't have to cook dinner cause as soon as I got back for the store I got to go to enrichment night for the relief society. So just for a few hours I was FREE from cares and it was just kind of overwhelming I think....so that is why I was crying. By the end of the night after talking and laughing with some other moms who felt the same way I do I felt ready and happy to go home and be a mom again. So the point of me sharing this is just to say that it's good to take brakes when ever you get the chance (even if you are just running errands) blast your music get away from your cares for just a minute so you can come back ready to start again feeling much better.

I'm a lucky girl!

Bob and I have been married for five years and have never had to purchase a dining table. We ate on the kitchen floor for the first five or six months and then my sister in-law Kristie found a table and chairs at a yard sale for a few bucks and bought it for herself and then ended up giving it to us. We still use it for our kitchen table. When we bought this house we had an empty space where the official dining room should be and then Cat gave me a table that was given to her which she no longer has use of. It was small but worked for the time being but did look a little odd seeing as it had no chairs for it. Anyway a couple of weeks ago I was up north visiting family and my husband told me to go to my most favorite store in the world in snowflake, The White Chair, to pick out my Mother’s Day present. So without argument I simply obliged. While there I found the perfect table to fill that spot but it was way out of my price range and didn't even include the chairs so I lost the excitement of it all pretty quick. When I got home I told Bob about it in passing. I just mentioned that I found this great table that was just perfect but way too expensive. And then that was it. I went on not thinking much about it after that. WELL I guess Bob didn't he called the owner of the store talked her way down on her price and got me all the chairs to go with it, then surprised me with on Saturday. Hence the title "I'm a lucky girl".

My little garden, and tiny little feet.

Well today was a frustrating day for me. My son as of late has become very difficult to deal with. I do not know what is going on growing pains I guess. But to top it all off today I had my niece and nephew over to play and was enjoying the break for a little bit when my niece came in and told me that Nehemiah and Jacob were walking in the flowers, "I think they think it is grass" she said. So I go out to find most of my flowers trampled to the ground. Why do I even try. I clean my house just so I can clean it again five minutes later I try and make my yard nice just so all my hard work can be trampled under foot by two little monsters, as cute as they may be. Tonight I am feeling very much a failure as a mother and a home maker. And being very tired does not help me much in my self loathing. I love my kids to bits but I have to say some days I wouldn't mind if they were able to go to grandmas for the day:). But tomorrow is another day and I have every intention of getting up and trying again....I just wish I didn't have to.

My little Garden.

So I have been trying to plant a garden in my back yard. Mostly flowers right now. I have been working my butt off trying to make everything look beautiful but have not been as successful as I had hoped I would be. But I have gotten some very lovely flowers to grow, so I thought I would post them on my blog. I come from a family of awesome gardeners, My Dad is probably the best that I know, and my sister Cat is right up there with him. Hank is very good as well. I love to garden but just can't seem to get the hang of it as well as they all have but I am not going to give up I have two joys in life besides my family of course and that is my home and my yard. I strive to make them nice and love to be in them when they are. I still have a long way to go with both of them but even longer with my yard. Any way here are some pictures of some of my small triumphs.