Ahhh freedom

So on Thursday evening I had to run to the store. It had been a long day and the last thing I wanted to do was go grocery shopping, but you gotta do what you gotta do right. So on my way out I grabbed my rascal flats CD and thought well I can listen to this and try to make the best of things. Any way before I knew it I was on my way music blasting singing to the top of my lungs and then out of the blue I got all chocked up and started to cry. I felt so silly. Why would I be crying and then I noticed how free I felt, I had not one single child with me I was all alone. How nice. I was able to just breathe for a minute. I didn't have to tell Nehemiah to stop torturing his sister and I didn't have to deal with Baea screaming while I got her ready for bed turning what should be a few minute ordeal into something that lasts way longer than it should I didn't have to cook dinner cause as soon as I got back for the store I got to go to enrichment night for the relief society. So just for a few hours I was FREE from cares and it was just kind of overwhelming I think....so that is why I was crying. By the end of the night after talking and laughing with some other moms who felt the same way I do I felt ready and happy to go home and be a mom again. So the point of me sharing this is just to say that it's good to take brakes when ever you get the chance (even if you are just running errands) blast your music get away from your cares for just a minute so you can come back ready to start again feeling much better.

I'm a lucky girl!

Bob and I have been married for five years and have never had to purchase a dining table. We ate on the kitchen floor for the first five or six months and then my sister in-law Kristie found a table and chairs at a yard sale for a few bucks and bought it for herself and then ended up giving it to us. We still use it for our kitchen table. When we bought this house we had an empty space where the official dining room should be and then Cat gave me a table that was given to her which she no longer has use of. It was small but worked for the time being but did look a little odd seeing as it had no chairs for it. Anyway a couple of weeks ago I was up north visiting family and my husband told me to go to my most favorite store in the world in snowflake, The White Chair, to pick out my Mother’s Day present. So without argument I simply obliged. While there I found the perfect table to fill that spot but it was way out of my price range and didn't even include the chairs so I lost the excitement of it all pretty quick. When I got home I told Bob about it in passing. I just mentioned that I found this great table that was just perfect but way too expensive. And then that was it. I went on not thinking much about it after that. WELL I guess Bob didn't he called the owner of the store talked her way down on her price and got me all the chairs to go with it, then surprised me with on Saturday. Hence the title "I'm a lucky girl".

My little garden, and tiny little feet.

Well today was a frustrating day for me. My son as of late has become very difficult to deal with. I do not know what is going on growing pains I guess. But to top it all off today I had my niece and nephew over to play and was enjoying the break for a little bit when my niece came in and told me that Nehemiah and Jacob were walking in the flowers, "I think they think it is grass" she said. So I go out to find most of my flowers trampled to the ground. Why do I even try. I clean my house just so I can clean it again five minutes later I try and make my yard nice just so all my hard work can be trampled under foot by two little monsters, as cute as they may be. Tonight I am feeling very much a failure as a mother and a home maker. And being very tired does not help me much in my self loathing. I love my kids to bits but I have to say some days I wouldn't mind if they were able to go to grandmas for the day:). But tomorrow is another day and I have every intention of getting up and trying again....I just wish I didn't have to.

My little Garden.

So I have been trying to plant a garden in my back yard. Mostly flowers right now. I have been working my butt off trying to make everything look beautiful but have not been as successful as I had hoped I would be. But I have gotten some very lovely flowers to grow, so I thought I would post them on my blog. I come from a family of awesome gardeners, My Dad is probably the best that I know, and my sister Cat is right up there with him. Hank is very good as well. I love to garden but just can't seem to get the hang of it as well as they all have but I am not going to give up I have two joys in life besides my family of course and that is my home and my yard. I strive to make them nice and love to be in them when they are. I still have a long way to go with both of them but even longer with my yard. Any way here are some pictures of some of my small triumphs.

On the Side of the Road in Joe-City.

So this bench was a great find. I drove past it nearly everyday growing up in my little home town of Joseph City. It was set out side of an old run down auto shop. Bob and I were about to move to a bigger apartment and I was up visiting my parents to go to some yard sales to find old furniture for cheep to fix up. on my last day there I drove past this old bench again and decided that I would add it to my collection so I found out that the old auto shop belonged to my best friend Jana's grandparents. I called her grandma offered to buy it and she gave it to me instead. So here it sits safe and warm to welcome those who come to my home. I still have to give it a good sanding and wax job but for now it will wait in it's old weathered dried out glory.

My little table

So my Aunt used to have this little table in her house and put model boats on it. It was just stained but I always thought it was so cute. So years later now that I am all grown it is mine. :) She was moving and was getting rid of it. It was pretty beat up but my Dad saved it and gave it to me as a birthday gift. I painted it white. I love it. It looks great in this spot that used to look so bare.

So it is late at night and I just got off work. I am very tired and want nothing more than to go to bed. But this is the only time that have to sit and work on my blog so here I am. We just finished the Thanks Giving weekend and now we are moving on to Christmas, I just put up my decorations this weekend and I am looking forward to Christmas it comes all too soon and goes by way to fast. I am trying to get some of my projects done that I made for my self like a year ago and never got to, so I will post some pictures of them as I go along. but first I have to take some. And that I will do tomorrow but right now I am going to go to bed.